Its been a couple of months since I have written anything. Its kind of pointless to even write because I know nobody reads it. Oh well. Im still going to write away anyway! A lot of things have gone on in the past two months. Me and Chad are still together (happily: most of the time) For a while we had a lot of problems and we broke up a few times, but we always got back together and made up. I really do miss summer though. Everything was so much better during the summer. Me and Trina were best friends, we did everything together. We layed outside for hours tanning and blaring the music, we danced for hours while blaring the music, we pretty much went through life with the music blaring. We went places when we werent supposed too...like the pool hall. And most of the time we convinced daddy to let us keep the car while he went to work. Then we would go pick up Chad without daddy knowing. Man, things we so great. My relationship with everyone was great. I felt good about myself, cus I was tan, and I looked good in my shorts and tank tops and I just had fun 24/7. Then things changed when school started. Me and Trina started drifting apart, then she got pregnant and didn't want to do anything anymore, and me and Chad started having a lot of problems. I guess things have evened out a little bit. Trina isnt sooo bad anymore now that her morning sickness is over and me and Chads relationship is really strong now. But it wont be like this summer ever again considering we will have Trinas kids and the new baby next summer. I really wish I could go back to the begining of summer and do it all again because NOTHING went wrong and everything was perfect and I had so much fun its almost like a dream. I know it sounds really cheesy and your probably like "So you had some fun...whats the big deal?" Well havent you ever had a time in your life where everything just goes right and you are just so happy and things change and you wish you could replay that whole time again? Come on...I know you have... Ive been kind of down lately. I wasn't excited about Halloween, and I wasnt excited about Thanksgiving and now Christmas is coming up and I still am not that excited. Usually by this time I am counting down the days until Christmas day and my birthday but im so neutral, I guess you could say. It kind of sucks to see everyone else around me jumping for joy about the holidays and im sitting in the background like "woohoo" all sarcastically. It wont even just be me, my dad and Trina on Christmas. The "heathens" will be living with us by then and everything will be disasterous. I dont even want to be there Christmas morning because all im getting is money and all they will do is complain because they want "a different color", or "a different character" or something stupid like that. Man those kids piss me off. Im kind of thinking about being at my moms house for Christmas...thats what im used to and its more fun that way with my own brother and sisters. You know? My dad will be really hurt though because I also spent Thanksgiving at my moms...even though I told him I would stay home. Oh well I guess ill have to get over it. Nothing is going to change now, no matter how hard I try. Well thanks for listening, or reading, or whatever. Bye | 
